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God I really really don’t want to be one of these people but it’s 11pm I’m sobbing and I don’t know who to talk to  
My dad and my sister tag along &  make me feel like I should die or disappear
Probably over exaggerating but the way they treat me especially weather I finally have a day off Abd can relax at home or when I get right off from work
I always do something wrong they have to yell or throw it in my face
No one cares about my struggle or how I feel
This is the situation at hand and I have to deal with it!
I just want to live in peace! Why can’t they let me carry on with my happy naïve self
I’m not smart, I haven’t moved out I don’t have a lot of friends and now I need to get a new car! Not to mention my birthday is coming up. I swear every year something bad happens that makes me feel like a failing waste of life Abd on that day we can smile be happy Abd the next day get yelled at for something else!

I wound move out but I’m such a wreck I can’t do it alone
If I have depression it’s because I’m scared of being left alone... it’s not a bad things to be alone but I’m not a popular person... mostly because people walk all over me...
I really hate feeling this way I really do and I’m really sorry ...,. I just don’t know what to do with these feelings... I think the best part is I’m not suicidal but I just wanna go and see if anyone would give a damn...  would anyone have realized that I struggle just living on my own two feet ..... no one understands me no one wants to understand me... I’m just here.... I’m just a living person taking in more oxygen.... and I’m forced to live this way  
I probably couldn’t afford therapy or special help... I probably couldn’t even take depressants or anxiety pills  

I don’t know know if these feelings are stupid or hormone shit or even normal but feeling this way is getting old and I’m they only who can do something about it but I don’t know how.... I don’t know how I don’t know...

Instructions-
I'll take 3 lots
Doing first come first serve
I'm not picky
I'll do animals mostly dog, cat or dragon like species is usually my category
I only except points
I don't got PayPal so points only
And if you don't have points I'll do an art trade just ask

Point price


Rough sketch-
Chibi/cartoon-5 pts
Realistic- 10


Simple Line art/ no color-
Cartoon/chibi- 10 pts
Realistic-20 pts

Line are/ colored-
Cartoon/chibi-15 pts
Realistic, meaning fur detail, color glow 20 pts

Added background
Simple coloring or shape 5pts
Detail/ plant/ sky ext-(somewhere between  10-20 pts would be nice)


If u have a pacifist size or design just le me know and be simple and clear of what you mean Plzs
Instructions help

Commissioners

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Also sorry there is no images I don't know how other then put up links
Which I think would be annoying
just snoop through my gallery and if there's a certain way u want me to do yr commission just send me the link or the title of my art and don't worry the price will not change no matter what u pick
Just as by the way ;D also thxs for all of yr support guys

(This is going to start out as a bit of a long explanation so if u wanna cut to the chase to the story I'll have this **** to show where my story summary begins )

I wanna write a yugioh fanfic and I like to write story's that's start out happy then In the middle make it anxiety and sad
then end it on a happy note
if not, go straight into the anxiety/ depression and have the main character suffer right until the end but this story, they story I'm thinking of writing  
It makes me wanna cringe but at the same time I wanna shot for it and see how it turns out

I wanna know if anyone would actually read it or would wanna read so Plzs let me know
But alright I'll stop yapping and explain my story
But first just to inform u (this is important) in middle school I wrote a fanfic about yugioh with my own oc involved
they oc was a white wolf named akira that was supposedly Yugi's guardian. (Born where then tomb gaurdians were like marik) she was Created to help and support yugi to help him help return the pharaoh home (yeah I know it sounds bad but geez it was my first fanfic and I was in middle school. the years where start creative writing so don't make fun of me Plzs lol)

anyway I never finished the story but it's still in my fanfic account XD if u are interesting which I doubt u are
But u can just note Me or comment under and I'll send u a link, Lmao

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But yeah the story I wanna write -
(I'm not going to actually add this part in they story well maybe but) yugi has been having dreams of this white dog in his life as if it was an old friend to him, they were good dreams but yugi never knew who the white dog was
(That part will be a quick introduction into the story but I'm going to make it like "this is how it could have been or it's a seep of a another dimension crossing into his, just something that happened else were but just not here. Do u follow lol?)
Anyway (I'll say it as many times as necessary)
One day walking home from school yugi pondering over his dreams he sees these kids acting weird off to the side in an ally to learn there  beating up this dog with a rock, basically bashing its head over and over, this small defenseless white puppy!
Yugi shouts at them to stop, the run for it  and toss the rock off to the side
It's cover in blood; yugi rushes over to the pup as it's lying on its side whimpering
Yugi immediately noticed It looked like the dog yugi has been dreaming about and he also noticed her wearing a collar. Her tag reads only her name Amira (which cause yugi to wince as he remembers the name from his dreams as well)
the color and tag are Covered in blood, blood stains all over the pups body
The wounds still bleeding of course as Amira's white fur is consumed In red/pink
The dog still breathing
Just Barely and she's hardly moving, the small figure loosing lots of blood by the second so
Yugi picks up The dog and heads to the vet which happens to lead near home but on the way she dies before yugi could even passes his house (the dog gives yugi a friendly lick before passing away just a btw) . Yugi cries of course as he decides to just go straight home with the dead dog to meet grandpa and yami' worried expressions
They bury the dog in the back yard with the name akira carved into a small tomb stone.

(I though about this and I feel like it be a way of me putting my first old story to rest lol if that makes sense)

And do u wanna know why this came to me!!!!
First off I was watching the channel ID all day today and was watching one episode of a series called fear the neighbor, and in this particular episode this old guy was killing this one guy with a gun then when he ran out of bullets! He then bashed his gun into the wounded man the used a cement block instead over and over like geez talk about over kill
Surprising the man was alive for a bit before sercoming to death

Abd the second reson was becuz in this one anime Scene I found on youtube
I watched these kids kill a innocent puppy to death just to bully this one girl (the girl was taking care of the pup after school everyday)
Out of anger fear and sadness she kills them with some physic power with out having to touch them
I was like holy sh** and wanted to cry over the non existing puppy

That's when everything clicked and I though about my tragic story
I wanna cry about it but at the sane time i just wanna do it but I want U guys oppinion

Plzs give me advise

I no longer use this account I moved and started over though I do check it now and then
If you wanna keep watching me u can check out my new page
The link will be here
sasonyawolf.deviantart.com/

Ok so I got like 700 points I don't plan on using and am thinking about giving it away but in a contest to make it fun and worth something but of course I'm going to have to spit it between 3 prize winners

1st place being in thinking 400-500
2nd place being 100-200
Abd 3rd place  being 50 points and a free request done by be. If wanted it could be both or one of the two choices

But it's my first contest and wanted some advice.
I was thinking for all who know my characters, Amira and Jasper. I was thinking of doing a contest to see who knows how draw Amira or since it's February to see who does the cutest drawing of Amira and Jasper together
I ship them X3
So  what do you guys think!? U like or do u have any better idea I could to make it more creative.

Just reminding u I've never been in a contest or done one before
so some am couragment or advice would be great
And depending on how many comments I get will depend on if I go through with it